The Elections

I can hear the sound of Rain coming to America again.
more to come
Joshua

this is reality You are coming to reign on the earth, and the increase of Your government will know no end!

The Secret Things Revealed

I had a strong feeling from the Lord last night that He wants to uncover secret things in our community. That is a scary thought. I have been asking the Lord through this fast to purify me and uncover any secret sin. I desire the Lord to rebuke me and purify me in this age, not the next. i want to be found ready and faithful in that day. So i say, Lord, search me and know my heart, try me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting. "a holy man is an awful weapon in the hands of God."
joshua

this is reality You are coming to reign on the earth, and the increase of Your government will know no end!

The Fast

I am glad no one really reads this blog because then i can write things i really don't want people to read. with that in mind, i am going to be going on an extended fast. it starts on the 23rd of September and ends November 2nd. I will be doing a liquid fast. the purpose of the fast is primarily for America to turn back to God, specifically California. along with that, it is for the elections and for the unborn. i am also fasting for my niece Jade's healing, revival to hit Wilmore, KY, and for personal renewal and holiness. I will be joining thousands who will be fasting all around the country and my roommate Ryan will also be doing a media fast. I consecrate my heart to the Lord. Father God, I give myself to You, for the next forty days and for the rest of my life. God end abortion, save marriage and send revival to America! Lord, touch Wilmore with Your power and Glory, blowing away religion and academics, ushering in a new era of the Spirit and Presence of God. I also ask that You would heal my niece and that You set me apart in an even greater way for Your use; breaking away habitual sin and propelling me towards greater depths in You. i pray all this in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Spirit, Amen.

joshua

this is reality You are coming to reign on the earth, and the increase of Your government will know no end!

Dry

I feel very dry these days. i feel like if someone blew to hard, i would blow away. I need the Spirit to prophecy unto my dry bones and allow me to live. Can these dry bones live? You alone know lord!

joshua

Live

"In Him we live and move and have our very being." that has been the theme for verse for the youth works summer and has also been kinda a personal mantra for me this summer. i found myself relying on my own abilities, my own hard work, and my own ambitions to get me through the summer. yet, through the wisdom of a good leader and a friend, i was able to see that i was relying on the arm of the flesh and i was striving. i was not allowing ministry to flow out of an abundance of what the Lord was doing in and through me. i was not serving under the understanding that no matter the outcome, my ministry was blessed by God and that i was His dearly beloved. i was working to please man and not God. this led me to work out of fear and reservation. i would not invest my life into adults, students, and community members because i was afraid that they would reject me or not find me credible. to compensate for this, i would strive. God is faithful though, and He caused me to realize that i must serve out of the abundance of His love for me and the time i spend in personal devotion.
it is through that abundant overflow i find true life and i am able to give true life. so many times we run ministries on empty, and we only produce flesh. flesh only produces death. it is my pursuit to truly live, move and have my being in Him.

joshua

this is reality You are coming to reign on the earth, and the increase of Your government will know no end!

The Finish Line is in sight

I am almost done with the Youth Works summer. It has been a journey to say the least. I feel like i have been under a gigantic flashlight all summer. Everywhere i go i am under inspection. Maybe thats why i got sent to Daytona Beach, because God knew i needed a lot of light in my life. He has showed me many things and i know that this was a very important step in my healing. God is so good to me. I had a leader who displayed Christ to me in every area for the first time in my life this summer. she called me out in one summer more than any leader i have ever had. it was hard and good at the same time.
i am going back to Wilmore a little wounded, but the wounds were not inflected by the summer, they were just wounds that i had long ago band-aided up and the band-aids were just ripped off. this will allow me to actually be honest and open and to allow them to heal. i realized that i strive and maintain control in every area of my life. i have still not settled in my heart whether i can trust God and if He really loves me. i always try to prove myself instead of allowing the Spirit to be my offense and my defense.
I desire to live by the Spirit and if i do this, i will not walk according to the flesh! thank you Jesus for your healing. this time around i am not going to hide the wounds, i am going to allow the SON to heal them and then the scars will be my testimony of His grace.
thanks be to God who casues us to stand,
joshua
this is reality You are coming to reign on the earth, and the increase of Your government will know no end!

Destructive patterns

I have so much to process and write about, but this is what clouds my thoughts. It will destroy me.
joshua